Life is a Cosmic Joke - an Ayahuasca Punchline

Life-the Cosmic Joke

Lately, I have been chasing a lot of Peak experiences. Chasing the best version of myself while running away from the worst. After a heartbreaking end to 2022. I was ready to listen to whatever God had to say. In the Amazon, the Grandmother Plant Medicine, Ayahuasca, has been used for thousands of years to heal hearts and minds through the mysteries of its sacred tea. She has been calling to me for over 10 years and with my soul leaking out through my tears, I was completely open to give myself to her healing.

Sitting with her for 3 nights in a row catalyzed a profound transformation that is too broad for me to explain here. But I can let you in on something I learned during what can only be described as a universal download of knowledge.

Through sitting with Ayahuasca I was let in on the Cosmic Joke about this life. And I am going to share it with you.

First, I received an immediate memory of almost every stress-inducing moment over my conscious lifetime. Every relationship fear, survival worry, or self-hating narrative for every failure and setback I have experienced in life. All the things I have forgotten. All at once.

Imagine being able to be present to the thoughts around a worry you had 20 years ago. Imagine bringing that into the present and viewing that long-forgotten issue from today’s perspective. What would happen? Consider all the judgments and false narratives you made upon yourself or adopted from someone else’s thinking. What would happen to your mind? What if you could feel the pain of all of that, but then you experience a miracle--

You simultaneously recognize all those thoughts for the self-abusive bullshit stories that they are.

You remember that what you worried about never came to pass. The terror, fear, or sorrow you had in the past was forgotten. The pain that was felt disappeared over time because all things change.

And in that moment- you know that all the worry of those times came to nothing. That all the energy expended on fear, or shame or doom thinking, came to NOTHING. And for me, I knew then that every real setback I ever had turned into something for my highest good.

To experience it all over again, with the cosmic, God-inspired perspective and incontrovertibly PROOF that it was totally unnecessary utter bullshit worry made me laugh. Hysterically, in fact. I laughed for 2 days as it sunk in that I was totally free and did not have to carry fear, grief, or doom in my heart. Because everything changes and always ends in my highest good.

Since then, I went from grieving the loss of my life partner and the last member of my adult family to gaining a soul family who sees me and loves me with a depth of consciousness that I did not know could exist. I shed the negativity of my career with a company that I founded that had turned to darkness and immediately increased my income by 7X. I lost 20 pounds and my energy and health returned. I have had so many blessings of abundance since then, I cannot name them all here.

So that is the Joke. The Joke is that we worry for nothing. We destroy our alignment with who we really are by living in a fearful future or grievous past.

Please don’t worry. About anything. God has us. The Universe has our back. It always works out. Love is truly, all there is and it is all there for us.